..♥a glimpse of my thoughts♥..

the end of november

2010-11-30T15:06:00.005+08:00

i cant remember if it was pouring the same time last year..
somehow i felt that the weather had worsen over the years... hmm..
but what the heck.. it's December again!!!!
n i would like to think that the rain is like snow..

its a sign that Christmas is near *lurves*

a trip down south JB - SG

2010-09-10T02:17:00.004+08:00

I can't recall the last time i went for a family roadtrip, and am sure glad that daddy made an effort to organize this. It will be all perfect if only my little brother can join us
=(
Thanks to his idiotic superior who disapprove his leave..

An additional member to this roadtrip.. Curly!! She's been so good, sitting in the car for 3 and half hours without making any fuss.

aww... *sweets*

Just got here and will be spending the nite at daddy's apartment in JB. So nite peeps.. and hello Singapore tmrw!

-ciaos-

Stand up comedy - Internal Affairs

2010-08-26T17:10:00.008+08:00

Have always appreciate local comedy acts and the upside is I don't have to go down to KL anymore.. thanks to PJ Live Act @ Jaya One.. yea.. damn near my hse =)

Judging from the title i suppose its a parody of the HK movie, Infernal Affairs starring Tony Leung and Andy Lau

Truthfully, I have no idea what this is all about..
I only know that i'll be laughing my head off and having a great time with my peeps, Aaron, Ling & Gary.

Did i mention that i fell in lurve with Kuah Jenhan when i first heard him during Advertising+Marketing award night?

I'm a true sucker for ah-beng jokes and he topped the notch!

And i believe a drink before that will top it up!

*woots*

snapshot of my birthdays 09-10

2010-08-19T18:28:00.011+08:00

A snapshot of my gems on my birthdays
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2 years ago, we were at Kura (yup.. i lurve quiet birthday dinners.. it's my way of catching up with my sweeties)Do ignore Danny, he was an intruder that nite.. LOL
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And then I have my share of time with my tmbabies at Marketplace KL
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Time swifts by like nobody's business n then came my 25th birthday
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Again, my sweeties were there for me =)
Of all the things that happened to my in my life, there is one that i cherish most, my girlfriends that stood by me through thick and thin.. i'm starting to realize more that they are only ones that i can count on..haha.. yea who needs men when u have girlfriends like them.. =P

25th birthday at Rakuzen, Plaza Damas & Pier, Tmn Tun
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.me n my ling ling having some fun.. i know.. such odd poses rite??

a decent picture of me n darling jill

n the rest of the chicas!! christine, sarah, joyce n san =)
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n not to forget my tm* sweeties - billie, delia, von n mimi
the only difference 2 years ago is:
1) my hair didn't grow a bit
2) o boy.. age is surely catching up n im piling up the pounds! shoots! argh

p/s: let's see what's gonna happen next year
-pril-

the best of me

2010-08-16T23:50:00.004+08:00

i've dug high n low for the translation of this song n when i finally found it, i realized it meant even more to me..

The Best of Me

I don't care for what's eternal
I only care whether or not you want everything
Your sincere and warm pair of hands
I will accompany you whether to smile or to cry

I don't care how long you'll stay the next time you come
I only care about this unprecedented heartbeat
I won't leave cause I love you so
And I want to give you the best of me, even if we're just friends

I still want to be friends with you
I miss your big brown eyes and cute lips I wanna kiss
I miss holding your hands
But I'm still young and my heart's uncertain. What can I do?

Boy, what are the words you can't say?
No worries, I'm just overthinking it
I want freedom when I have everything
I want to have everything when I have freedom

I'm waiting so don't keep your words to yourself
They say when it's windy, you'll choose to shiver by yourself

Guess you'll never know, cause I'll never show
To whom you're not free to?

I don't believe someone will take you away from me
Nor will i believe I'll have you for the mean time
You drink with your head down
Don't just drink.

I'm protecting you by being just friends. The worst is the best excuse.
I understand that wanting your love is a ridiculous request.
I understand there's some tacit agreements that I need to comply with.
It's just that you let something slip by your eyes,
Baby baby the sorrow to love but can't.

Hey long time no see, I still remember you like to listen 'bu ru bu jian'
I remember when I used to share with you my worries, annoyance and pride.
But right now we are becoming more and more polite to each other.
When we broke up, your friends will clap and cheer.
Most of your friends don't like me,
But I'm still me, and I'll still live on.

The reason why I decided to leave, there is only one reason why,
Cause I know u deserve better and more,
Without me no one believes the constellation.
You need to live on nicely, don't think too much.
I wrote this song so I can tell you from my heart,
I love you and I still do love you now.
But it is just in a different way, If I may.

Hey be sure I know you used to love me more
But now as a friend I know the moment I leave this world,
You definitely will cry in front of my picture, and I'll do the same.
Not because I'm once your man, but because you've always been like my family.

To me this is not a secret, but how many people by your side will know the tears cried and the words spoken in my heart?
Even if I have lost you, when we meet along with your love along the street,
Don't avoid each other, I will smile and be polite.

PS: I wish you luck, wish you health, wish you love with a smile,
and a hug, wish you luck, wish you health, wish you love with his smile and his hug.

Nice to meet you, I'm very happy that I met you in my life.
Thank you.
And here I wish you luck and health.
I hope to see you again.
Goodbye.

my farewell to boo

2010-07-05T11:42:00.002+08:00

It's been 3 awesome years.. n im gonna miss u heaps boo
xoxo-pril

lost

2010-05-24T19:55:00.003+08:00

The question is, who can u rely on when u needed someone the most.
Is there anyone out there who's willing to go that extra mile to help you.

I knew it then and there, it wasn't a friend i was looking for.
Blindly i was looking for you. But where were you?

P and A

2010-05-20T14:10:00.005+08:00

One in New York,
The other in KL
Both pondering over the same thing.
What love is all about..

Thank you for standing by me and listening to all my crap then =)
Hope i didn't torture u..

Lurve lots - A

vague-ness

2010-05-12T19:40:00.005+08:00

Oh my.. look how time flies..

4 months back i was drowned in pain and battling within to find myself again
n it's funny how it all seems so vague to me now, like it happened years ago..

Stumbled upon this song and it pours all my feelings during that vulnerable stage. Considering i survived the battle, i hereby do still wanna share.

Anyhow, u were the one who posted this video =)

It gets harder every day, but I can’t seem to shake the pain
I’m trying to find the words to say, please stay
It’s written all over my face, I can’t
Function the same when you’re not here
I’m calling your name but no one’s there
And I hope one day you’ll see nobody has it easy,
I still can’t believe you found somebody new
But I wish you the best, I guess.
‘Cause everybody knows, that nobody really knows
How to make it work, or how to ease the hurt
We’ve heard it all before, that everybody knows
Just how to make it right, I wish we gave it one more try
One more try
One more try
'Cause everybody knows, but nobody really knows

I don’t care what the people say
They brought it all in anyway
Baby don’t fill up your head with he-said, she-said
It seems like you just don’t know
The radio’s on, you're tuning me out,
I’m trying to speak, you’re turning me down

And I hope one day you’ll see nobody has it easy,
I still can’t believe you found somebody new
But I wish you the best, I guess.
‘Cause everybody knows, that nobody really knows
How to make it work, or how to ease the hurt
We’ve heard it all before, that everybody knows
Just how to make it right, I wish we gave it one more try
One more try
One more try
One more try
‘Cause everybody knows, but nobody really knows

Oh I wish you’d understand
Oh, just an ordinary man
Wish that we had known
Everybody knows, but nobody really knows
And I know one day you’ll see, nobody has it easy
I still can’t believe you found somebody new
I wish you the best, I guess.

‘Cause everybody knows, that nobody really knows
How to make it work, or how to ease the hurt
We’ve heard it all before, that everybody knows
Just how to make it right, I wish we gave it one more try
One more try
One more try
One more try
‘Cause everybody knows, but nobody really knows

it's a rollercoaster ride

2010-02-09T18:34:00.004+08:00

week 1
Every second and minute felt like months.
And work is the only remedy to get me thru the day
I have to say,
U caught me off-guard and i didn't see this coming,
Agony would be an understatement.

The nights would had been most surreal,
It's like watching the same soap opera over and over again
Each scene were so vivid and the script repeated until morning.

I managed to pull myself out of bed,
Pat my own back and thought to myself,
Good job girl.
Now carry on.

week 2
The hours flew by quicker than before.
The pain began to abate,
and i know i've healed a lil bit more.

It's definitely a rollercoaster ride.
The unexpected ups and downs,
weigh me down.

Sometimes i break,
sometimes i make,
but mostly with me in denial,
thinking that things will soon be better.

week 3
U've given me the strength to pick myself up and move on.
Painfully,
but i see the glimpse of hope.

I can only stare at disbelief for 2 reasons:
1) how did i get through those days?
2) where did u find the strength?

I've learn to accept that u will no longer be there...
and it's alrite.

We've part our ways, bid our farewells, cleaned our messes.
Left a mark and will walk separate paths.

We were destined to meet,
to greet.
To share a life through joy and pain,
and through the disparity in love.
But only for a good few months.

One day i'll look back,
and i'll be able to see much clearer.
For the most obvious reason that you'll never be in my future.

-end-

the each n every step u make... molds YOU

2010-02-08T15:08:00.004+08:00

Watch your thoughts

They become your words

Watch your words

They become your actions

Watch your actions

They become your habits

Watch your habits

They become your character

Watch your character

They become your destiny.

you came into my life for a reason

2010-01-20T20:54:00.004+08:00

When i was vulnerable and sunk deep in pain, Mimi made sure i had to read this on her blog.

I told her, i've read that before.

She told me: Read it again, because in different situations it gives you a different feeling.

I'm now sharing this because i not only found it inspirational, it completely changed my view and thoughts within seconds. You only need to read carefully and feel each word.

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.

When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person.

When someone is in your life for a REASON,

it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.

They have come to assist you through a difficulty,

to provide you with guidance and support,

to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually.

They may seem like a godsend and they are.

They are there for the reason you need them to be.

Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time,

this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.

Sometimes they die.

Sometimes they walk away.

Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.

What we must realize is that our need has been met,

our desire fulfilled, their work is done.

The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON,

because your turn has come to share, grow or learn.

They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.

They may teach you something you have never done.

They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.

Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons,

things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation.

Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life.

It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

Thank you for being a part of my life,

whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime.

Courtesy of MimiChai =)

Doesn't Mean Anything

2010-01-09T20:34:00.002+08:00

heard this over at the radio... and i thought the lyrics is too meaningful =)

Alicia Keys - Doesn't Mean Anything

Used to dream of being a millionaire, without a care
But if I’m seeing my dreams you aren’t there
’cause it’s over
that just wont be fair
darling,
rather be a poor woman living on the street,
no food to eat,
cause i don't want no body if i have to cry.
cause it's over
when you said goodbye!

all at once...
i had it all
but
it doesn’t mean anything
now that you’re gone
from above seems i had it all
but it doesn’t mean anything
since you’re gone

now i see myself through different eyes,
it's no surprise!
being alone will make you realize
when it's over!
all in love is fair I shoulda been there, I shoulda been there, I shoulda shoulda.

all at once...
i had it all
but
it doesn’t mean anything
now that you’re gone
from above seems i had it all
but it doesn’t mean anything
since you’re gone

I know I pushed you away
What can I do that would save our love
Take these material things
They don’t mean nothing
Its you that I want
All at once...
I had it all
But it doesn’t mean anything
Now that you’re gone
From above,
Seems I had it all
But it doesn’t mean anything
Since you’re gone

All at once...
I had it all
But it doesn’t mean anything
Now that you’re gone
From above,
Seems I had it all
But it doesn’t mean anything
Since you’re gone

nightmare

2009-12-03T21:38:00.007+08:00

When i shut my eyes, i get insecure and intimidated.

As thoughts flashes by - i ponder over a face.

What about it that caught u in the first place?
How attractive was it?
How charming was it?
OR even worst..
I start the same battle war in my head...
Over n over again.

Comparing.

As torturous as it is... it was only most unbearable when i can never find victory.

I ask myself.

Was it not mine to begin with?
Did i took something that didn't belong to me in the first place?

Ultimately, i need to know why was it so difficult to make a choice then?

Curiosity haunts me with a slow rhythm.

I find myself constantly seeking ways, wanting to know.

Even with only bits n pieces.. i would solve the puzzle.

The clearer it gets, the deeper the fear and the smaller i feel.

The more i compare, the lesser the respect and the more i despise myself.

The nightmare ends when i open my eyes but it won't be the end of it. Not for long at least.

I live my blissful life everyday. Greet it with a smile every morning and coming home to a warm feeling when i see you..... because you are there.

I'd toughen up, live up to the nightmares.

BUT i need to know...

If it will ever stop haunting me.

we are the world

2009-12-02T18:07:00.004+08:00

It was just another morning walking in to work, caught by surprise.. there were cameras, wires, lights everywhere.

That's right, we are all shooting 'We are the World' today for our Xmas party @ PD Avillion next Wed.

See how my office has transformed into some sorta set. But it's quite a warm feelin eh?

even the pool area is packed with equipments!

n the guys watching the original video to gauge their moves. Director says "You must act like that or else we'll reshoot n reshoot till we get it right"

Definitely didn't have the mood to work as most of us have to be on standby to shoot our part. We have to mimic & lip sync our respective singers and it's freakin hillarious!!!!!!

Some of us are just born talents im tellin ya...

BUT

For sure, i'll never listen to this song for quite awhile... was blasting on every speaker, repeating the chorus non-stop and we can't stand this song anymore.

♥what a fine Monday morning♥

2009-12-01T13:27:00.006+08:00

Greeted by my dearest loving colleagues with a desktop wallpaper.

This is just the right antitode i need to feel loved ♥ after the torturous 10 days of boredom.

This teaches me a lesson to plleeasseee PLAN ahead for my holidays...

GLAD TO BE BACK @ WORK!
-pril-

my first 3 course meal

2009-11-29T00:06:00.006+08:00

i know it's been 8 months since i ever blogged.. n i just had to share my joy with u peeps today.

YES.. i successfully cooked a chinese 3 course meal!!!

Don't get me wrong, this is not the first time i've cooked but all i've ever tried was the easy one off meals, like western, spaghetti, fried rice and fried noodles, sandwiches, soups and etc.

So.. the pressure was on me yesterday when nick n i were strolling the supermarket hunting for today's breakfast n dinner meals. STRESS!!! and tiring...

Literally debating over what to cook and all - obviously he didn't entirely trust me but he have no choice so he chose the safe dish - TOFU.

*I want the egg tofu with mince meat n gravy - the one we always eat outside?* - not such an EASY choice afterall. *sweats*

Playing over in my head the whole afternoon:

can i just fry the tofu like that? or do i need to dip it in frying flour?

can i also put dried scallop together with the meat n diced mushrooms? the scallop need to soak first of not eh?

the gravy how to make leh?how much corn flour to put?

But with today's technology, you don't need to phone your granny to ask her how to cook, just work your magic fingers on GOOGLE. *type egg tofu recipe* muahahha

After 1 & half hours....

VOILA *even i'm impressed - bought a black pepper gravy (you know just to be safe) and I didn't have to use it to make black pepper beef!*

Oh.. btw that's just steam broccoli with salt n butter - nick's special request (just like those u ate at chillis wor)

I NEVERRRR knew we can get a sore arm from cooking!@#%# (it really aches, its like ive been lifting dumbells with one arm)

Damn, all mums MUST have toned arms - gift from god for acknowledging their hardwork. But sadly, the world's never fair. =P

-pril-

...my cinderella story...

2009-06-25T22:09:00.008+08:00

I suppose the fairytale plot goes like this:-

Once upon a time....there lived a princess in the tallest chamber of the castle..obviously being locked up (you do know fairytale starts of sad right??) ....and wonders to herself if her imaginary prince charming will magically come to her rescue in his gorgeous white horse...

And of course, every fairytale do end with *happily ever after* (i mean since when cinderella or snow white ends up miserably alone?)

So then prince charming came.. swept her off her feet.. and they magically fell in lurve...then came wedding bells and the end.

Yea.. technically this should be it... but we all know it's all fiction and cmon.. it's the legendary cinderella story.. IT DOESNT HAPPEN IN REALITY.

But just as i thought fairytale never exists, someone proved me wrong...

When i've never believed in *happily ever after*, someone assured me there will be...

When i've never dreamt of being Cinderella, someone told me i already am...

And ultimately, when you thought there'll never be anyone out there, look closer..........
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He's there.

-d fairytale-

poof and you're gone

2009-06-03T14:35:00.004+08:00

Honestly... HOW IS THIS EVEN POSSIBLE?????????

How can a plane just vanished into thin air??? This is appalling!!!!!!

Perhaps this is Final Destination in the real world.. *yikes*

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new moon

2009-06-02T16:46:00.003+08:00

i can't help the affection for this and decided to let it all out....

Rob speaks for himself lar... needless to say more...

I want to be a vampire tooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!
But why.. tell me why he have to leave Bella? #@&#$^@*&$

New Moon trailer *VOILA*

damn the stupid PS

2009-06-02T00:30:00.003+08:00

here i am sitting in the room.. waiting and waiting and waiting and blogging and surfing...trying to kill some time... alright lar.. technically im suppose to do some work.. but....a company will definitely make my so called working time here more pleasurable rite.. wouldn't it??? and wtf... you rather spend ur QUALITY time with a god damn black box...

i say i give u another 30mins and if you're not up.... i'll trash that thing away...

we girls just have some sort of natural born hatred towards that thing don't we... damn

*oopss*

the fine weeekend

2009-06-01T10:34:00.002+08:00

er... damn... how it feels like to miss the first rave in the looooonnnngggg list of raves ever held???

i'll just say.... i'm very much well rested... enjoying the every bit of the relaxing sunday and not bitching and whining about having to go to work the next day.. or even worst.. trying to create some sort of excuse in order to call in ill.. yea right... u think my boss is stupid rite.. of course she knows there's this rave and in fact.. she's pretty shocked im not going.. =P

funny thing is.. when i saw a few familiar faces at phuture... first thing is 'EH HOW COME YOU NOT AT THE RAVE?' *staring at me like i'm sort of alien from nowhere*

likewise i'll give them the exact same expression and laughed about it...

=)

the 3 basic rules

2009-05-29T18:34:00.009+08:00

It’s undeniably true that we’re are all unique in our own ways…

WE ARE IN THE END, ALL DIFFERENT HUMAN BEINGS rite…. living different lives.. believing in different values and aspects of life… “playing different roles”…embracing different habits and routines… but all in end.. its who we are and how we choose to be.. um… say HAPPY?

Point is.. can you change someone to be THAT someone else you want them to be?

Yea i'm sure we all have dreams.. I want this.. I want that.. and whennnnnn we don’t get it…....

we'll go....

“Ah.. fuck this shit” then we scram and look for an easier route out..right right right????

Sounds familiar? Btw, that’s the devil talking…

Or another familiar ‘angelic’ voice in our head… “I’m sure things will change over time.. she’ll listen.. she’ll change.. if she really want this so badly.. she’ll make those sacrifices”

Cmon let’s be rationale here…is it only about making you happy? What about us?

HARLOOOWWW what happened to compromising and giving and taking???

Yup yup yup.. I m sure we all have an ideal ‘fairytale-ish’ someone.. er…Snow White, Cinderella, Princess Fiona? hahaha....

"As much as we hate to admit it... there is this fairytale someone in our dreams" quote April

Let’s go through my fairytale list.. shall we?

# 1 A mum that let me swipe her CC withoutttttttttt LIMITTTTT

# 2 A dad that buys me new laptop, new car, even better pay for my own hse… *dream on babe!!!*

# 3 A boss that gives me an increment every other month and of course lesser work please…

# 4 A dog that for goodness sake will stop marking its territory at the wrong spots…

# 5 A granny that will stop saying ‘you see this cousin… that cousin all already married.. you leh?’

*SLAPS* Wake up huney….

They are who they are… and of course you can order them to do the things you want them to do or to be who you want them to be???? Try asking and see if they’ll give u 2 tight slaps…and if they don’t.. point taken and I withdraw all this bullshit here.

Will this fairytale transformation make everyone happy? I don’t know.. you tell me…

Or should it be 2 people trying to learn the art of listening, understanding and compromising?

*peace*

The best mistake i've ever made...

2009-05-27T08:35:00.004+08:00

One step too far
All at once I'm falling
Just like a star
I'm burning for you
Thought I could keep myself from feeling this way
I guess that was my first mistake

Cause suddenly I'm walking'
Down a dark street to your door
Wanting you is driving' me insane
And now my feet are standing
Where they've never stood before
Guided by a twist of fate

If I lose myself with you tonight
Fall apart or hold on tight
Wrong or right
I won't be afraid
Cause ever if my heart should break
You'd be the best mistake I ever made

I'm in your room
Now there's no denying'
What's in your eyes
When I look at you
Two shadows talking' but they don't make a sound
Words have lost their meaning now

And the air has turned electric
Now I know the time is right
To put myself into your hands
And suddenly I'm shaking'
As your fingers touch my skin
I don't need to understand

And if tomorrow proves me wrong
I swear I don't belong
I know I'll carry on

So I will lose myself and bare my soul
Take this chance cause heaven knows
I'm so far gone, my choice is made
And even if my heart should break

When I lose myself with you tonight
Fall apart or hold on tight
Wrong or right
I'll always say
You're the best mistake I ever made

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

little red riding hood got lost in the woods

2009-03-27T20:39:00.005+08:00

it's a blurry vision...hazy and I can't seem to see clearly...
is there a road or a dead end?
i really can't see... do i have to take my chances on this?
or should i just stand still and wait for the fog to clear?
perhaps i should wait.... i'm sure i'll be able to tell soon enough...
yea... *taps her feet waiting anxiously*

-and the fog starts to clear-

gosh!!! it splits into 3 paths....
now which route to take...

Path 1
~ this look pretty familiar... i know!!! i've been here before...
but this is not how i remember it to be... i mean everything looks the same... probably even better now.. but why the different feeling then?
well... it sure does take some adjustment n adaptation to this road.. it's been so long i haven't been here and i'm pretty sure there are no snakes around... although the road is pretty steep and slippery... and that's right!! i thumbled down the hills here once before.. no doubt it's sure a painful fall...i slipped, knocked over and hurt myself...and it was raining so heavily that night... so cold n was in so much pain....i looked around for help.. there's no one there...i yelled... no one came to my rescue... probably they heard but i definitely can't be found in the dark....
*damnit i'm sure gonna die here*
after umteen hours i got so tired...and fell asleep in numb of the pain....days passed by... there was rain and shine again and rain and shine again...and as time goes by i slowly healed....being able to move again and smiled to myself..i'm going to pick myself up and find a way out!!!
n i did =)

Path 2 ~ TBC =P

cny fun

2009-02-05T14:01:00.016+08:00

i suppose this is the only time in a year i get to bond with my little cousins and family...

and what we did was.. eat... gamble.. nap.. open house n more open houses... n not to mention early mornings and late night sleep....the usual cny ritual la.. what's new...

n melissa will be leaving for melb soon.. so let's take more pictures before u leave!!!

my only 2 girlies + me (dai kah jeh)

mel (with her SLR) + eleena toh

*winks*then more of TOH Family...

damn alot of us rite.... no space to stand lo.... steamboat summore... =P

and baby asprey here dunno doing what.. yes he's still baby cause he's the youngest of all..

me + my mama and grandpa...

and the siblings eating n gambling... aighhh... see my didi's face damn lan dou...

then daddy + me drooling over my new born cousin (baby jessie)

yes dad i know u are anticipating one.. either u wait for mine or u go make yours!!!!!

-pril-

i vs you

2009-01-16T18:58:00.007+08:00

when i talk...
you form it in your own imagination
and throw it back at me as plotted nicely
as if it was true...

when i stand in my own box...
you came pushing till i hit the corner..
left stranded there..
as if there's no way out...

when i defend..
nothing seems out right..
pointless to do so..
as if i was the one to blame..

when i mesmerize...
i can only remember the bad times..
made me so afraid..
as if there's nothing good at all there...

when you complain..
i try to absorb and secure a change..
no promises can be made..
as if it was totally impossible to achieve...

when you ask for more...
i knew i couldn't do that much...
not because i don't want to...
as if i was cold..

when you walk away...
i can't hold you back..
because i did nothing sweet...
as if you are not important at all...

but when i step outside..
looking deep from within..
we both didn't mean to run and hide...
as if nothing between us were true...

but...

the fact that we are different people trying to share...
ONE life together...

-end-

-= the magical fairytale without an ending=-

2008-12-17T12:17:00.008+08:00

our journey began in y2k.... 2 besties who came from some school wearing the same identical uniform as i was wearing when i first stepped in.. yea and im thinking who the hell are those 2? don't rmbr seeing them at my previous school!!

but then i'm the outcast newbie who did not come to a new school with a friend... so i'll just grab on to my Dolly magazine and lets just say i try to sit at a corner minding my own business...

at the corner of my eye.. i saw this flash of light glistening and i can't help but to draw my attention from above my mag.. *tadah* ling with her braces waving anxiously at me...wow.. i thought this girl is really friendly.. and cmon... i'm a friendly person too.. so i smiled back... she walked towards me.. not too far away.. probably bout 10 steps..
she headed fastly toward me in her baju kurung... keke (oklar.. i over exxagerated a bit but i rmbr u smiling at me alrite =P)

still with that smile on her face... her first words were none the less asking me to loan her my DOlly mag.. WTF!!!

and that got me a detention for standing in front of everyone during first day of school's morning assembly.. thanks darling.. and then i got famous overnight...

and obviously when i met ling.. i'll meet pearly eventually and there we are 3 stooges spotted in the center of the school like idiots or not.. cause we are wearing our different uniforms from the rest... did i mention we were center of the attention too? i wonder if they were negative or positive attentions... hmmmm

then came along... pearly's cuzzie.. jill... kinda funny how we all ended up in art stream which only consists of 2 classes and magically our friendship grew.. maybe because we share the same common interest of being rebellious? hahaha hence the name terrorist at our reunion after 7 years after high school?

but then again... these are only few of the MANY funny memorable moments we shared together.. we laughed.. we cried... we argued.. we confronted.. we also drifted apart from time to time.. but then magically cupid will pull us back together...not to mention how many miserable mistakes / men we've bypassed.. haha.. and i know i can depend on u girls... from the tiniest advice of what to buy for our bfs for xmas to the bitchiest arguements we have over the phone... and yet we are still a WHOLE...see.. nothing can tear us apart... =P i kinda sound like a lesbo now don't i? hahaha

girls.. im just reminiscing the funny ol days...

And from this.. what we all looked like 7 years ago...

to this...

i know your jaw dropped rite... hold it there pls... =P

with jill and pearly reminiscing our friendship in different ways on their blog.. i reckon i should do it my way too... ahhh...

so pearly... puh-lease with the sex and city cast although it did light up my gloomy wednesday afternoon... haha...

enough said.. else ill go on and on and on.....there's no ending to this story.. this is one fairytale without 'THE END'

*without u girls.. there is no Me today*

-lurve always-pril

lost all my senses

2008-12-04T10:31:00.003+08:00

i couldn't breathe... i couldn't even taste the roll of tobbaco i lit... inhaling as much as i can.. thought it would trigger my tastebuds... hah... mission failed

obviously my hearing was not 100% too.. all transmission to my brain seems blocked!!!

it's like im high on something... i mean what virus could be so powerful that i've lost all my senses??

i couldn't even drag myself up from the sofa.. after lying at the same spot for 5 hours in a row...must be some kind of drug i'm thinking... yea.. let's recap on the meds i took...

zytrec = doctor's prescription is 1 pill per day.. i took 2 cause my flu is really killing me... and i needed some air to breathe.. take note that this is non drowsy yea.. so no extra effect k..

throat irritation pill = doctor already warned me that the side effects are my hands shaking.. well... ok.. so this is expected... fine..

cough syrup = im so immune to syrups that it won't knock me out...so yea... felt a bit high..but after awhile the highness wears off..and then the super bad headache hit me..

damnit.. guess this is what happens when u misuse drugs? but hello.. i followed accordingly to doctor's prescription..

zzzzz.... not to mention the sleepless nights....

-one soldier down-pril

another you....

2008-11-19T15:25:00.002+08:00

so many times i was alone and couldn't sleep
you left me drownin' in the tears of memories
and ever since you've gone, i've found it hard to breathe
cause there was so much your heart just couldn't see
a thousand wasted dreams are rollin off my eyes
but time's been healing me and i say goodbye

cause i can breathe again dream again
i'll be on the road again
like it used to be the other day
now i feel free again so innocent
cause someone makes me whole again for sure
i'll find another you

could you imagine someone else is by my side
i've been afraid, he couldn't keep myself from falling
my heart was always searching for a place to hide
could not await the dawn to bring another day
your not the only one so hear me when I say
the thoughts of you they just fade away

cause i can breathe again dream again
i'll be on the road again
like it used to be the other day
now i feel free again so innocent
cause someone makes me whole again for sure
i'll find another you

sometimes i see you when i close my eyes
you're still a part of my life

but i can breathe again dream again
i'll be on the road again
like it used to be the other day
now i feel free again so innocent
Cause someone makes me whole again for sure
i'll find another you

-pril-

uncertainty

2008-11-14T18:26:00.002+08:00

things do happen when u least expected it.. and it's even more complicated when it's not within your control... you'll probably ask yourself a million questions a day.. and it's undeniable that there'll be doubts...

if this is really the right track to be on... or will this lead to an impulse decisions that will affect your current lifestyle.. and no matter how many times you question yourself.. u'll never get the answer...

i suppose the only way to overcome this is to leave it to fate... and im pretty sure time will give u answers to all those doubts... i guess we've left with no choice but to wait and see and judge with our own eyes...

there's no right or wrong.. you'll just have to take your chances on regrets or joy...

---doubts of joy---

last minute life-saver

2008-11-10T11:07:00.011+08:00

and i thought i have more than enough friends to fill up my free time from mondays - sundays... aighhh... what a disappointment i would say..

when i needed a company to watch a footie match with me @ republic bar pyramid.. none were free!!!!

probably its a saturday nite.. and yo!! party people.. who wanna watch football at the other end of the world with me... then i go like.. aiyar.. i have to lar.. i have to work... i need to check out de event and snap some pictures...

match starts at 8.45.. and after numerous calls.. i thought eh.. bu is an MU fan.. maybe la maybe... he will drive all the way down to watch the other half of the match with me.. my lucky day.. of all ppl... he said.. if you really can't find anyone.. ill come!!! *wahh.. i felt like i strike lottery man*

i mean cmon.. going there watching footie alone!!! i'll look like a complete loser..

but then.. there's always hope in life.. hehe.. and we had fun...

see see see.. my events are not boring ok....=P got ipod battle after that too.. hmpph... seems like im partying also wat.. and sorta working at de same time...(my job is just to take pictures and check out de event and watch the footie match.. u dumbo!!)

see y'all.. THAT'S THE FOOTBALL SPIRIT IM TALKING BOUT!!!

MU supporters!!!! but !@#&!%^#*... Arsenal won 2-1 .. fuckers... at least there's no disgrace to MU fans.. they scored a goal with pride the last 10mins i think.. can't rmbr.. busy downing the booze already by then.. don't care when they scored.. as long as they did.. heh!!!

jealous or not now... turn me down again lar..not to mention drinks are on ME... hmmph..

=P

de unexpected sunday surprise

2008-11-10T10:09:00.001+08:00

who would have guessed?

on a fine sunday evening i was doing this with darling jill!!!!!!!

er.. although you don't see me in action.. cause jill is too lazy to take picture of me working.. hehe... but i did my job okaaayyyy... i am de driver + the tile sticker = person who stick the tiles and the one who hold them for at least 5 - 10mins so they don't fall off

alrite alrite.. de actual fact...we both made it happen!!!!! yay!!!

here's our final masterpiece (did i mention after 3 hours?? *sweats*)

isn't it gorgeous??? what a beauty...

the next time i walk into heart&soul.. i'll be overwhelmed (show off!!!... eh that thing i help do wan leh.. nice leh..ngek ngek ngek...) =P

-toodles-

god's fault.. not ours...

2008-11-06T09:55:00.000+08:00

look.. when u guys are busy complaining that we women are hard to please.. can't read our minds.. fussy like old grannys... whines all the time and the list goes on and on and onnnnnnnnnnn...

please rmbr that we shed gallons of blood annually.. (i think) or whatever.. doesnt matter if its gallons or not.. the point is we do loose out alot of blood... well, at least once a month...

so let's make it a deal.. you can be the king of the jungle and we'll please u and make u happy for.. let's say about 28 or 29 days?? and in return u let us whine and throw ourselves all out for the remaining 2-3 days??? how's that sound...

and the contract states.. when we are at such state that god invented.. called the freaking PMS.....

YOU LETS US VENT AND MAKE SURE WE GET TREATMENT LIKE WE"RE QUEEN!!!! WE NEED THAT KIND OF ATTENTION SOMETIME!!!!! AND THIS IS DEFINITELY THE RIGHT TIME FOR IT!!!!

there!@#$@$%@.... see... this space does me the honor of letting me ALL OUTTTTTTT..

-the end-

i'm in lurve

2008-11-05T17:17:00.001+08:00

YESSSSS... I"M IN LURVE!!!!!!!

and if his moves do not impress u... you're not a woman!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm on cloud 9... melting like a cotton candy in my mouth =P

okay.. now i sound a bit psycho.. butttttttttttt

it's oklar to drool over JAY CHAOOOOOOO!!!!!!

!#^@&*#@^$&*@^

self explanatory rite?? and the english translation do us 'bananas' such good justice!!!

i actually understand what he's singing now... and am so into it...ahahaha

i am truely, madly, deeply

*fainted*-pril

marc jacobs fanatic

2008-10-31T20:33:00.000+08:00

lastly.. if really can't find those bags.. get me one of these keychain!!! i'm looking at red , yellow or purple.. cant decide yet..

bro - check out the price for this.. i dunno what's the range but recognize it and hunt it down.. hahah

large brass large signature shopper bag

marc jacobs province-town-large-white-tote

thanks bro!!!!!!! muah

if i were a boy????

2008-10-30T14:29:00.000+08:00

If I were a boy
Even just for a day
I’d roll outta bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted then go
Drink beer with the guys
And chase after girls
I’d kick it with who I wanted
And I’d never get confronted for it.
Cause they’d stick up for me.

[Chorus]
If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man.
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he’s taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

[Verse]
If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone it’s broken
So they’d think that I was sleepin’ alone
I’d put myself first
And make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she’d be faithful
Waitin’ for me to come home (to come home)

[Chorus]
If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man.
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted (wanted)
Cause he’s taken you for granted (granted)
And everything you had got destroyed

[Vamp1]
It’s a little too late for you to come back
Say its just a mistake
Think I’d forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong

[Male]
You know when you act like that
I don't think you realize how it makes me look
or feel

[Beyonce]
Act like what
Why are you so jealous
It's not like i'm sleeping with the guy

[Male]
What

[Beyonce]
What

[Male]
I said yo
Why are you so jealous
It aint like I'm sleepin with the girl
[Vamp2]
But you’re just a boy
You don’t understand
Yeah you don’t understand
How it feels to love a girl someday
You wish you were a better man
You don’t listen to her
You don’t care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you’ve taken her for granted
And everything you have got destroyed
But you’re just a boy

BOY o BOY... can't help it lar... need to express my lurve to dis song.. nice hor????

journey of de past

2008-10-30T13:55:00.001+08:00

woke up feeling chirpy and had this sense of sentimental feeling deep down me somewhere although i have a pile of job reqs to issue @ work.. knowing i got so much work.. i should be dreading the day rite? but surpisingly NO!!

weird eh.. i think so too... hahaha

then i stumble upon some pretty old pictures of me n my sweets...

amongst all.. sis i miss u th most.. u're miles apart n we don't talk much.. damnit..but it's ok.. true friends will always remain close to me @ heart... n u've never drifted away..

TA-DAH!!!!! now de AAAAAAALLLLLLL of us........*sweets*

*muacks*pril

morale of de story

2008-10-28T18:39:00.000+08:00

let's see where do i begin.. for the past week i was anticipating for the weekend.. and then Friday came... and yet im hoping to club.. so came saturday!!

*yip yip hooray* was probably the perfect expression for that day

so we went to quattro, rather than my usual clubbing spot and since i have not been there before.. why not drop by n check it out rite? so the smarty pants me drove my bfs car and thought.. hey im a responsible gurl and i am so damn sure i can drive home safe..

the nite pass by so quickly as i was down-ing drinks as if its my wedding... haha.. *sorry la.. de urge and craving for alcohol overcame my senses and ta-dah!!!! TERBABAS is de word*

de effect of excessive alcohol.. not to mention de mixture of all types.. can't even recall a single thing.. memory loss sial!!

but my dear friends were kind enuff to lend me their branded bags as pillows.. haha.. saw the LV? ooo

but then again obviously there is a price to pay to have such mischievous act of display... kena screwed by mr kee lar what else... for de very first time in 1 and half years wei... no joke

morale of the story is behave lar moi!!!

haha

point taken n lesson learnt!

ciaos

missing u both dearly..

2008-10-22T15:49:00.001+08:00

It just ain't the same without the both of you... my life is just not complete..

No more random outings after a long hectic day at work or even during weekends...

No more movie nights with you bro... and no more pasar malam nights with you...no more small karaoke gatherings.. things are just extremely different...

Anticipating your return.. missing you both dearly..

lurve-pril

a lil outing with my darling

2008-10-21T12:20:00.002+08:00

was wondering if it's worth the jam all the way to cheras to pick up my lil darling.. not to mention it's during the prime jam period.. sigh...

but being stucked in the jam for 1 and half hours seems to be worth it..

it actually made my Monday lot more better!!!

us @ GSC pavillion watching House Bunny

p/s:- Not a good movie thou.. merely because we weren't following the plot!!!

=P

eeekkk!!!!!!!!!

-aPriL-

bad bad Monday!!!

2008-10-20T15:16:00.000+08:00

Thanks to this lil fucker.. it made my entire Monday morning so blue and retarded that I almost couldnt recognize myself for it..

the next time I'll learn how to use a tea-spoon.. I suppose this is what you call overdosed on cough syrup??

WeEeEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeEEEEEEEEEEEEeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!

Was tossing n turning for the whole night.. why can't I get a good shut eye after the amount of dosage i had???? So so weird...

2008-09-30T15:02:00.000+08:00

Secondhand Serenade - Fall For You

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before?
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed, but I have loved you from the start

Oh, but hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible

So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in, I'm yours to keep
And hold on to your words 'cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight when you're asleep

Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find

Tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

*It's been AGES since i heard such a great song.... it's going to repeat on my itunes and i'll be playing it ON and ON till the day i feel so sick that i'll puke if i ever hear it again* =P

vile game

2008-09-30T14:17:00.001+08:00

what on earth was i thinking... was it the malicious curiosity or was it just plain.... 'for the fun of it, why not..as long as you don't die' thought?

honestly... there was no judgement from within.. but that's only what i think.. what about other's perception? do i really care? this is not the usual me... i never cared what was spoken off but the angel in me is whispering the wise decisions... or more like a gentle kind reminder...

"beware... it may bite"

you've only proved yourself as a despicable being... needless to say more... it's pretty obvious..

roll the dice and place your bets.. the only difference in this game really depends on how you weight your loss and wins..

de baleful thought

2008-09-26T15:36:00.000+08:00

if only de reception on my mobile was better that night...i would have prolong-ed the conversation. And perhaps i could have talked you through to stay and to not board that plane..

if only i had taken your words more seriously and try harder to go through the bad times with you. i meant what i said.. and i had never gave up on you.

i am praying here... in silence... hoping that you will return as soon as you can.

i can only imagine the exact scenario you are going through right now... helpless and vulnerable and nobody to turn to... some say this is the best lesson for you.. in order for you to resurrect...

but to me..this conviction is way too much of a price to pay..you do not deserve this...there is much more better way to get out of this...

you're blocked out within 4 walls... with no communication back home... i can only feel the painful you.... whenever there's a flash of you in my thoughts.. it pinches me...

for the love of god.. no crime done here to hurt elseone or anything that involves another soul... please guide him and bring him back to light..

bless always - pril

de post-it note

2008-09-25T11:12:00.001+08:00

i've figured out...

in order to keep you in my life forever..........is to never hit the 'PLAY' button at all...

once you've PLAYED.. eventually, somehow and one day it will END.

*lurve-pril*

crisis that led to BULLSHIT pressures

2008-09-25T10:53:00.000+08:00

i believe i'm not de only one going through this phase in life... de subconscious pressure haunt us in various ways...

No doubt we're all unique and different in our own ways... hence de numerous ways to vent / to release it all out..

it never got me thinking how i succumb myself to this s0-called "releasing habit"
i always thought its de thrill that excites me and yet there was never a single guilt in me... even punishment could not stop me.. call me daring or bold but that's not what i wanted to prove...

you were right last nite.. with the amount of pressure i am undergoing... there!!!! my own unique way of expressing... a tacit understanding...

wat we call this again?? mid 20s crisis... haha.. BULLSHIT!!! what happens when there's a crisis at your 30s , 40s or even 70s? There are all age crisis... point taken... age is just a number... we all are and will always be the child in our very own heart and soul.

de lame excuse i made up to have some fun

2008-09-24T10:22:00.000+08:00

apparently my dear ric kor is heading to the mountains @ nepal again... for 1 freaking month..

correct me if i'm wrong as i know nuts bout mountain climbing / trekking or whatever u call it.. but do you really need a month?? mt everest probably take less than that...

but then............. it's a super duper good excuse to call up my bros for karaoke!!! yay!!! and with the 2 magnificent karaoke kakis... not to mention that our bloody good rapper FFK-ed us...

i remembered texting to bout 7 ppl... and guess wat.. we ended up with the 4 of us...

before we got to the hype of singing.. a few of us got naughty and someone got some spankin....

also some dancing to the jazz version of one of ric's song..

oh yea!!! my didi decided to take a break off his assignment marathon n ta-dah here he is... he is indeed quite a good singer... i suppose it's in de genes.. *haha* n... sorta got drunk...hence the pose.. hahaha

and yet the nite ended these 3 darlings...

christmas wish came true!!

2008-09-10T15:55:00.000+08:00

what else could i ask MORE for?

got in de office in de morning to find this mail announcing that the entire Saatchi&Saatchi are granted for a 2 week long holiday starting from xmas eve till 5th Jan!!!!

woohoo!!! you can imagine all de holiday plans running through my mind right now... to top it off.. it'll b better if i have extra cash to play around with...i'm praying really hard for that!!! haha

i just couldn't think of a better way to end this year and to start de next year ahead...

xoxo-pril

~inspired by my peeps~

2008-09-05T14:10:00.000+08:00

elloooooooooooooooooooo... which cave do i live in?? even my dad has a blog and what am i waiting for.. i wonder...

de amount of time i spend daily being a bloggee.. (according to my dad, bloggees are ppl who reads but never contribute / comment.. and yup i'm one of them)

so.. on a fine Friday noon.. after scrambling thru my enormous workload in de morning... i ventured myself to the world of blogging...

i mean what de hell.. i should start somewhere...

my dad blogs bout politics / nation views or whatever you call it.
my vegan babe blogs bout.. well.. being a vegan... (hence the nickname)
my fashion addict babe blogs bout.. needless to say..isn't it quite obvious? =P

so... comes back to the question.. what am i gonna blog bout.... someone who's easily inspired.. very very emotional.. filled with all sort of feelings that sometimes i find it hard to describe in words.. an advertising person who seriously need some writing practice... and yet i still don't know.. anyway this is just something you call 'shiok sendiri'

cheers-pril