it's a rollercoaster ride

week 1
Every second and minute felt like months.
And work is the only remedy to get me thru the day
I have to say,
U caught me off-guard and i didn't see this coming,
Agony would be an understatement.

The nights would had been most surreal,
It's like watching the same soap opera over and over again
Each scene were so vivid and the script repeated until morning.

I managed to pull myself out of bed,
Pat my own back and thought to myself,
Good job girl.
Now carry on.

week 2
The hours flew by quicker than before.
The pain began to abate,
and i know i've healed a lil bit more.

It's definitely a rollercoaster ride.
The unexpected ups and downs,
weigh me down.

Sometimes i break,
sometimes i make,
but mostly with me in denial,
thinking that things will soon be better.


week 3
U've given me the strength to pick myself up and move on.
Painfully,
but i see the glimpse of hope.

I can only stare at disbelief for 2 reasons:
1) how did i get through those days?
2) where did u find the strength?

I've learn to accept that u will no longer be there...
and it's alrite.

We've part our ways, bid our farewells, cleaned our messes.
Left a mark and will walk separate paths.

We were destined to meet,
to greet.
To share a life through joy and pain,
and through the disparity in love.
But only for a good few months.


One day i'll look back,
and i'll be able to see much clearer.
For the most obvious reason that you'll never be in my future.

-end-

the each n every step u make... molds YOU

Watch your thoughts

They become your words

Watch your words

They become your actions

Watch your actions

They become your habits

Watch your habits

They become your character

Watch your character

They become your destiny.

you came into my life for a reason

When i was vulnerable and sunk deep in pain, Mimi made sure i had to read this on her blog.

I told her, i've read that before.

She told me: Read it again, because in different situations it gives you a different feeling.

I'm now sharing this because i not only found it inspirational, it completely changed my view and thoughts within seconds. You only need to read carefully and feel each word.

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.

When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person.

When someone is in your life for a REASON,

it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.

They have come to assist you through a difficulty,

to provide you with guidance and support,

to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually.

They may seem like a godsend and they are.

They are there for the reason you need them to be.

Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time,

this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.

Sometimes they die.

Sometimes they walk away.

Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.

What we must realize is that our need has been met,

our desire fulfilled, their work is done.

The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON,

because your turn has come to share, grow or learn.

They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.

They may teach you something you have never done.

They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.

Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons,

things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation.

Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life.

It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

Thank you for being a part of my life,

whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime.

Courtesy of MimiChai =)

Doesn't Mean Anything

heard this over at the radio... and i thought the lyrics is too meaningful =)

Alicia Keys - Doesn't Mean Anything

Used to dream of being a millionaire, without a care
But if I’m seeing my dreams you aren’t there
’cause it’s over
that just wont be fair
darling,
rather be a poor woman living on the street,
no food to eat,
cause i don't want no body if i have to cry.
cause it's over
when you said goodbye!

all at once...
i had it all
but
it doesn’t mean anything
now that you’re gone
from above seems i had it all
but it doesn’t mean anything
since you’re gone

now i see myself through different eyes,
it's no surprise!
being alone will make you realize
when it's over!
all in love is fair I shoulda been there, I shoulda been there, I shoulda shoulda.


all at once...
i had it all
but
it doesn’t mean anything
now that you’re gone
from above seems i had it all
but it doesn’t mean anything
since you’re gone

I know I pushed you away
What can I do that would save our love
Take these material things
They don’t mean nothing
Its you that I want
All at once...
I had it all
But it doesn’t mean anything
Now that you’re gone
From above,
Seems I had it all
But it doesn’t mean anything
Since you’re gone

All at once...
I had it all
But it doesn’t mean anything
Now that you’re gone
From above,
Seems I had it all
But it doesn’t mean anything
Since you’re gone

nightmare

When i shut my eyes, i get insecure and intimidated.

As thoughts flashes by - i ponder over a face.

What about it that caught u in the first place?
How attractive was it?
How charming was it?
OR even worst..
I start the same battle war in my head...
Over n over again.

Comparing.

As torturous as it is... it was only most unbearable when i can never find victory.

I ask myself.

Was it not mine to begin with?
Did i took something that didn't belong to me in the first place?

Ultimately, i need to know why was it so difficult to make a choice then?

Curiosity haunts me with a slow rhythm.

I find myself constantly seeking ways, wanting to know.

Even with only bits n pieces.. i would solve the puzzle.

The clearer it gets, the deeper the fear and the smaller i feel.

The more i compare, the lesser the respect and the more i despise myself.

The nightmare ends when i open my eyes but it won't be the end of it. Not for long at least.

I live my blissful life everyday. Greet it with a smile every morning and coming home to a warm feeling when i see you..... because you are there.

I'd toughen up, live up to the nightmares.

BUT i need to know...

If it will ever stop haunting me.

we are the world

It was just another morning walking in to work, caught by surprise.. there were cameras, wires, lights everywhere.

That's right, we are all shooting 'We are the World' today for our Xmas party @ PD Avillion next Wed.

See how my office has transformed into some sorta set. But it's quite a warm feelin eh?

even the pool area is packed with equipments!

n the guys watching the original video to gauge their moves. Director says "You must act like that or else we'll reshoot n reshoot till we get it right"

Definitely didn't have the mood to work as most of us have to be on standby to shoot our part. We have to mimic & lip sync our respective singers and it's freakin hillarious!!!!!!

Some of us are just born talents im tellin ya...

BUT

For sure, i'll never listen to this song for quite awhile... was blasting on every speaker, repeating the chorus non-stop and we can't stand this song anymore.

♥what a fine Monday morning♥

Greeted by my dearest loving colleagues with a desktop wallpaper.


This is just the right antitode i need to feel loved ♥ after the torturous 10 days of boredom.

This teaches me a lesson to plleeasseee PLAN ahead for my holidays...

GLAD TO BE BACK @ WORK!
-pril-